August 16
It began with a month of windshields and detailed
observation of cornfields in various states of distress,
indicating less
than one would hope in
the 102 miles between suburban St. Paul and
Danbury, a town you pass through on the way
to your initial
destination
First, the joy of the children as they complete their
disco Jesus hymn singing among the tamaracks
in the small church by Webb Lake, with the
meander of the county highway that leads to towns you’d barely noticed
as the time
approaches to retrieve your son some 52 miles away, who is clean and reverent
despite the condition of his overnight bag, containing a merit badge for
camping and a dozen tales of derring-do
You’ve marked these paths before – Augusts in ten-year
increments have
brought you back
to your ancestral home to eat fried fish and digest mortality –
Dad clenching his hands in literal death grip on the
hospital bed some 22 years before, not ready
Mom fading a
decade later, the cancer removed but with less than a week to enjoy the cure
August arrives in
warmth and often leaves with a hint of chill, a cold taste that you’ve sensed
every time a telephone rings, because the voice on the other end of the line is
hushed, again, beneath the
plangent tone
The morning paper
reports a missing girl, 3, has drowned in a canal in Danbury, the town you
passed through just weeks before without a second thought, her tale complete
before it begins
We’ve said goodbye before in August
The phone rings during your 3 p.m. meeting to discuss
alternative website presentation of portable generators
and when the
number comes up on the screen, it’s your sister and you fear another goodbye is
Imminent
The meeting ends and you duck into an empty cubicle to
return the call – a massive cerebral
hemorrhage has
struck and felled your Aunt, nearing 80, though she’s kept alive long enough
so her family
can assemble and say goodbye, her tale complete
Tears flow in Danbury and St. Anna, two Wisconsin towns
six hours apart, for lives separated by 347 miles
and three
quarters of a century
We say goodbye
in August, sensing the chill
5 comments:
Death is kind to no one
Regardless of the race one's run.
It plunders life, then memory.
Dear God, please comfort Mr. D.
Mr D:
Thanks. It is hard but the love of family really helps. Glad we could be together last week.
Cousin Dan
I am, too, Dan. Very much so.
grandma was 1st of 12. "The Leonards" they were called.
basically, an enthic group unto themselves, with a very tribal attitude and identity...
there were Leonards (however low they may be, and usually were), and then there was everybody else.
I am a Leonard.
it is my first identity.
we said goodbye to the last of the twelve (my Aunt Donna) last week.
needless to say, its been a contemplative week for me.
in short...
Yeah, bro...
I know where yer at.
Prayers (again!) be with you.
Thanks, Gino. My aunt passed away last night. She was fond of saying that we should "storm the gates of Heaven" with prayer. And I've no doubt that she did just that.
It's coincidental, I suppose, that so many sad events in my family's history have happened in August, but we've come to dread it.
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